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Living the name

Why the name?

Recently, as I felt relaxed from days of work, pressure from schedules and etc., I came to think about my life in the past. I tried to recall all of those fears that I have when I was young. One of those, was being called by the name ”boryong“. Actually, it is the name of my grandma’s brother. As I recalled, whenever theres a gathering, some friends and other family members started taunting me with the name then I started shying away and sometimes started crying. I don’t know why I acted like that, maybe I am afraid of my name being replaced or just I don’t like to imagine the face of the person whose name being called on me because as I can recall he got a weird eyes.

As of the saying, “you have to live your fears in order to conquer it“. But I think I already conquered it long before. So for now, I’ll start using it as one my my net names, besides it is the name of my grand.